And so too are we

Creating that which is Unknown

It’s time to tap in

To expand

To awaken our potential

Fear constrains

Contracts

I’m setting up the dominos

Putting together the pieces

Fear keeps us alive

In dangerous straits

Systems of control and power

Bank on the animal instinct

So my domino layout is saying

To move past fear

Is to awaken potential

So to move past fear

Is to know possibility

To create it

What is the expansion

The possibility

And on the personal

How do I inspire

How do I create

When I move past fear

Into the endless possibilities

And summon great power

The shift in perception

To know I am so much more then I’m told

And not in some millennial taught you can do anything bullshit

I’m talking spiritual resonance

Moving through this life

Lighting others on fire

With passion 

To wake the fuck up

This paradigm was created

And so can a new one begin

And it always starts with one

Connecting with one

Expanding

Surrounding

Shifting

Guatemala

You told me my child would do something great

I’m banking on this

If a child comes

Let it

And I’m waking up to that mission

I felt it under the sequoias

In the eel river

The San Joachim

And I’m grateful

That I’m starting to know it

And it starts with feels

And moves to words

That layer the feels

And the movement began before me

And will end after me

And I’m ready

To shed the fear

To step to

I’m ready

And I love it 

Being wrong is a tool

When you wield it

Allow yourself to be wrong 

Expand your limitations

Be powerful by being wrong

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Mirror Mirror

I’d rather not

Paint my face

Since you noticed me

And my war paint turned cruel

Lured a predator 

To my gate

One despicable enough 

To lure me into a state

Of vulnerability

I didn’t know

I was making a mistake

It wasn’t just him

It was the place

My intention

To be Wild and free

Still

I let someone hold space

Whose intent

Whether known or not

Was to crush me

Possibly fated

It was my time to learn

To wake up

Not to close down

But to recognize 

When i am safe

To explore the wild unknown

my mixed history

With narcissists

With blame

With a parent

Who used me

To feel better

That my grandmother

Did the same

To my mother

Unwinding the cycles

Finding voice through analysis

Searching the black bag

For the answer to why

Why I let my flood gates open

With a snake

Hard lessons

I could have easily flaked

Played the victim

Cried at the misuse of male privilege

Or

Went into vengeance goddess

Shaking his reality

Showing his powerlessness

Provoked a reading of the story

That paid waste to his access

And thus creating

More connection between us

Through his anger 

At my abilities

He’d have cried sheep

And had reason to attack

Like the wolf he is

Or worse

Been ensnared

Believed his projections

Laid waste to my self esteem

My grip on reality

Loosening

Weakening

Breaking

Broken

Instead I’m learning

I’m pushing myself

Awakening to new concepts

Of why I’ve been this way

So I can move through this work 

In strength

And the only way to do that

Is change

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Chess Player

Constantly the chess player 
Taking power with every move
Never forgetting any slight
And I'm grown now
Realizing I don't want this manipulative shit
I'm grown now and maybe I outgrew my insane love of you
Maybe I see you clearer 
Me too
My wants are not just you
I always said you were too 
Important to fuck
Now you're just not what I want
Not with this back and forth power game
It's shifting
Quakes taking the foundation
And setting shit right
My rebuild on this distruct
Now feeding my know
That I done outgrew this shit
I want you
And it'll be on my terms
Too